It been long since I blog. I now have sometime in my hands but not really putting good use to it.
I saw this movie "Up in the Air" acted by George Clooney. In that movie, he did a talk that started with..
The weight you carry in your life controls your life. So he starts saying, imagine this bag is your life. Now put all your things you cared in it, things like your house, your car, your mobile phone...ect. I know it wont fit but once you put all those things there, now just burn the bag!
How do you have left and how do you feel? Tell me.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Friday, April 15, 2011
Dead people don't talk
Dead people don’t talk, a simple sentence but when you give a thought. This is the strongest words to describe the root of pain one goes thru after loosing a love one.
I can believe it one year since we missed our dad. I remember very clearly how today was just a year back. It was not a good day. I woke up trying to fight the sorrow but ended up wiping my eyes and looking blankly at the ceiling. Right the time i am writing this, my dad was in hospital. I talked to him over the phone at 6 am, the last word he said to me still lingers around my ear loop. " Enneke onnum elle da" means "There is nothing wrong with me, i am fine". His words comforted me but how was I wrong to believe that was the case.
April 13, 2010, a day I can never forget. I was sick few days before. That early morning, i had the worst fever in my life. Temperature hitting 41 degree c and had to be cool down with iced towel. I lost my sence and was delusional. Then, my sis called telling dad was in hospital, the only thing i didn't want them to find out was that I was sick. I spoke to my dad, i tried to hold back my cought,....unfortunately one got away. Only one cough and immediately my dad asked if i was well. I lied to him saying it was just dry throat and I cleared it. A man in last hours and still cares deeply for his son. I love him soo and miss him much.
Today, I feel the pain. The memories just flashes. While driving to office, the radio aired a song. This song was the song I last saw my dad dancing to. It was new year 2010, we were in Kuantan. I tried to stop him from drinking... we still had while I was not looking. Typical Arumugam, he does what he feels he wants to do. The only man I have ever known to live out his life. A free soul.
He has thought me a lot, the best word he ever thought me was. Never say Cannot, Dono or Couldn’t. This is the quote I live by.
Later I was dignosed with H1N1, it could have been me that day or is it that i was cought off guard that i couldn't analyze what was comming. if only is stayed focus.... if only mom called me when he had the attack.... if only I was home! Any change on this one thing would made a huge change. I would still have my dad.
The call came in about 2pm, my sister called and started crying. I can't believe, I looked very calm outside. Really calm, just how I normally look. Inside, I was in tears. I couldn't feel anything below my neck. I felt as thou half of me has just left.
The first glimpse of the coffin, I accepted it but still I looked cool but inside, my heart felt as thou a huge elephant was sitting on it. The man that did almost anything for his sons, lies lifeless in a 6"by 3".
Dead people don’t talk, its seriously the thing you miss. He used to be just a phone call away, now not matter how hard I try, I can never hear him calling me. No matter how many times I call "Appa, Appa, Appa" he will never respond. I wanted to take him places, lots of stuff I wanted to do with him. Now, its all gone.
The feeling in me is just great, I may look cool and smiling outside. But in me, I feel every single pain and sorrow. Its easy for a lady to cry out her emotions, but for a man this is not something he can do freely.
If only........but there is no more chance for any of those “ if only's”. I learned that people are really important. No matter what, life is just to short, so just be happy and make people around you happy. We will never know who will stay and who will leave.
Talk all you want now, because "Dead people dont Talk".
I can believe it one year since we missed our dad. I remember very clearly how today was just a year back. It was not a good day. I woke up trying to fight the sorrow but ended up wiping my eyes and looking blankly at the ceiling. Right the time i am writing this, my dad was in hospital. I talked to him over the phone at 6 am, the last word he said to me still lingers around my ear loop. " Enneke onnum elle da" means "There is nothing wrong with me, i am fine". His words comforted me but how was I wrong to believe that was the case.
April 13, 2010, a day I can never forget. I was sick few days before. That early morning, i had the worst fever in my life. Temperature hitting 41 degree c and had to be cool down with iced towel. I lost my sence and was delusional. Then, my sis called telling dad was in hospital, the only thing i didn't want them to find out was that I was sick. I spoke to my dad, i tried to hold back my cought,....unfortunately one got away. Only one cough and immediately my dad asked if i was well. I lied to him saying it was just dry throat and I cleared it. A man in last hours and still cares deeply for his son. I love him soo and miss him much.
Today, I feel the pain. The memories just flashes. While driving to office, the radio aired a song. This song was the song I last saw my dad dancing to. It was new year 2010, we were in Kuantan. I tried to stop him from drinking... we still had while I was not looking. Typical Arumugam, he does what he feels he wants to do. The only man I have ever known to live out his life. A free soul.
He has thought me a lot, the best word he ever thought me was. Never say Cannot, Dono or Couldn’t. This is the quote I live by.
Later I was dignosed with H1N1, it could have been me that day or is it that i was cought off guard that i couldn't analyze what was comming. if only is stayed focus.... if only mom called me when he had the attack.... if only I was home! Any change on this one thing would made a huge change. I would still have my dad.
The call came in about 2pm, my sister called and started crying. I can't believe, I looked very calm outside. Really calm, just how I normally look. Inside, I was in tears. I couldn't feel anything below my neck. I felt as thou half of me has just left.
The first glimpse of the coffin, I accepted it but still I looked cool but inside, my heart felt as thou a huge elephant was sitting on it. The man that did almost anything for his sons, lies lifeless in a 6"by 3".
Dead people don’t talk, its seriously the thing you miss. He used to be just a phone call away, now not matter how hard I try, I can never hear him calling me. No matter how many times I call "Appa, Appa, Appa" he will never respond. I wanted to take him places, lots of stuff I wanted to do with him. Now, its all gone.
The feeling in me is just great, I may look cool and smiling outside. But in me, I feel every single pain and sorrow. Its easy for a lady to cry out her emotions, but for a man this is not something he can do freely.
If only........but there is no more chance for any of those “ if only's”. I learned that people are really important. No matter what, life is just to short, so just be happy and make people around you happy. We will never know who will stay and who will leave.
Talk all you want now, because "Dead people dont Talk".
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Trip to Moscow
I was on a good 1 year break from traveling. As you know, traveling is something i can delay but cant avoid. Some thinks i am lucky to travel wt all expences paid by company. But less knows the trouble and hassle i need to go by. Travelling for work is not as exciting as one may think
After a good year break, I now travelling to few contries in Europe for work. This has landed me in Moscow, Russia. I didnt want to travel here, but unfortunately the issue here is far greater the other country.
Let me come back to my travel experiace in Moscow. I had some sort of expectation in Moscow, just for that i decided to spend 2 full weekends here. After i bid farewell to all, i was on my way to Russia.
This time, I am traveling wt SQ.
Day 1.
After a painstaking ~11 hours flight, i finally landed. I didn't have time to do much homework about this country. The blogs i read said one thing in common, " Lack of customer service" I wondered what that was.
The flight i was on was a flight to Huston,US wt a stop over at Moscow. This is where i drop off :). The first encounter was not pleasant. I came out of the plane and was making my way to the Immigeration. Now remember this was a stop over flight. That means the others that are still continuing to US, they must come out as well. There was these bunch of passangers that didnt know where to go. There was this young ground staff girl. Her job was to guide the transit passengers to the boarding area. I can clearly understand now when they said " Lack of Customer Service." This girl, was shouting at passengers to get to the correct place. I think she forgets that the passangers are the one that paying for her salary ( i mean directly). I have never seen any airline staff being rude, well only in Russia.
The next thing i noticed was, NO ONE SMILES. I really dont get this, they are all not smiling. Not even the airline staffs.
Well, cut the story short. I was out and was told that the driver will wait for me outside. The was this guy holding my company logo. So I went to him and said, Marriot Tverskaya? I am Karu. This guy, of course with a bloody sour face. Didnt speak a single word of English! I cant get this, if a foriener is coming, please sent some one that can speak english. He called his office, and a lady with a stern voice asked for my name. After i said that. Things was clear. Now, the drive just showed his hand indicating move. Wait a minute, he is the driver and i am paying him to drive. Why such and bloody addititue ? Wors still, i had to carry my bag and drag my luggage along. Idiot didnt even offer to take them. Common, i am the kind that is very generous in tips. Oh man, lack of customer service. This is worst then, let me think..... hmmmm... well i cant think of a country where the driver didnt offer to take my luggage.
Finally after dragging my luggage alone to about 500m to car park. I was finally on my way to the hotel. It was the longest silent ride ever. Not a single word. After some time i was at the hotel. I checked in and rested a bit. By now you should have guessed, if not let me tell you. There was no bloody bell boy to open my doors or take my luggage. I had to drag my luggage and open the 2 doors they have. I checked in and still no bellboy to take my luggage to room. Guess what, this is some sort of 5 star hotel and i pay ~ USD300 pernite! Well the possitive side to this is I saved my tips money :)
ok now, I will stop complaining. So I dumped all my luggsges in room and headed to Red Square. It was about 20 mins walk from my hotel. The day I landed, was coinsidently was Moscow founding day. So there was some event happening on the road. They closed the road and had those metal detactors ( similar to those in airport in smack middle of the road. If i needed to enter, i have to go thru that. So i did the said, i waked thru the portal and it beeped like crazy..... Oh no, am in trouble !!! hehehe the police let me thru and so did they did for the rest of thousand ppl. I now feel completely safe feeling that even the portal beeps, everyone can still come in. If you had a gun, the portal will surely beep but dont worry, the police will let you thru. ;)
Did I tell you, the girls here are super hot. I have to give them credit. Almost all has a stunning body with a pretty face, model like.... s... ( to be continue)
After a good year break, I now travelling to few contries in Europe for work. This has landed me in Moscow, Russia. I didnt want to travel here, but unfortunately the issue here is far greater the other country.
Let me come back to my travel experiace in Moscow. I had some sort of expectation in Moscow, just for that i decided to spend 2 full weekends here. After i bid farewell to all, i was on my way to Russia.
This time, I am traveling wt SQ.
Day 1.
After a painstaking ~11 hours flight, i finally landed. I didn't have time to do much homework about this country. The blogs i read said one thing in common, " Lack of customer service" I wondered what that was.
The flight i was on was a flight to Huston,US wt a stop over at Moscow. This is where i drop off :). The first encounter was not pleasant. I came out of the plane and was making my way to the Immigeration. Now remember this was a stop over flight. That means the others that are still continuing to US, they must come out as well. There was these bunch of passangers that didnt know where to go. There was this young ground staff girl. Her job was to guide the transit passengers to the boarding area. I can clearly understand now when they said " Lack of Customer Service." This girl, was shouting at passengers to get to the correct place. I think she forgets that the passangers are the one that paying for her salary ( i mean directly). I have never seen any airline staff being rude, well only in Russia.
The next thing i noticed was, NO ONE SMILES. I really dont get this, they are all not smiling. Not even the airline staffs.
Well, cut the story short. I was out and was told that the driver will wait for me outside. The was this guy holding my company logo. So I went to him and said, Marriot Tverskaya? I am Karu. This guy, of course with a bloody sour face. Didnt speak a single word of English! I cant get this, if a foriener is coming, please sent some one that can speak english. He called his office, and a lady with a stern voice asked for my name. After i said that. Things was clear. Now, the drive just showed his hand indicating move. Wait a minute, he is the driver and i am paying him to drive. Why such and bloody addititue ? Wors still, i had to carry my bag and drag my luggage along. Idiot didnt even offer to take them. Common, i am the kind that is very generous in tips. Oh man, lack of customer service. This is worst then, let me think..... hmmmm... well i cant think of a country where the driver didnt offer to take my luggage.
Finally after dragging my luggage alone to about 500m to car park. I was finally on my way to the hotel. It was the longest silent ride ever. Not a single word. After some time i was at the hotel. I checked in and rested a bit. By now you should have guessed, if not let me tell you. There was no bloody bell boy to open my doors or take my luggage. I had to drag my luggage and open the 2 doors they have. I checked in and still no bellboy to take my luggage to room. Guess what, this is some sort of 5 star hotel and i pay ~ USD300 pernite! Well the possitive side to this is I saved my tips money :)
ok now, I will stop complaining. So I dumped all my luggsges in room and headed to Red Square. It was about 20 mins walk from my hotel. The day I landed, was coinsidently was Moscow founding day. So there was some event happening on the road. They closed the road and had those metal detactors ( similar to those in airport in smack middle of the road. If i needed to enter, i have to go thru that. So i did the said, i waked thru the portal and it beeped like crazy..... Oh no, am in trouble !!! hehehe the police let me thru and so did they did for the rest of thousand ppl. I now feel completely safe feeling that even the portal beeps, everyone can still come in. If you had a gun, the portal will surely beep but dont worry, the police will let you thru. ;)
Did I tell you, the girls here are super hot. I have to give them credit. Almost all has a stunning body with a pretty face, model like.... s... ( to be continue)
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